Believing in Yourself
Fun fact: this is not the first blog I have created! In the beginning of 2016, I had a different blog (and it was very cringey). While I no longer use it, I do want to share what my fifteen year old self wrote. The following is a post I wrote for my old blog:
Life can be quite difficult and challenging. You don't always believe in yourself. At times, life makes you feel like a failure. You feel as if you aren't good at whatever it is that you are doing in that one second. There are two quotes that I adore that happen to relate to this subject that I am writing about.
Believe in yourself and you're halfway there. This quote shows that you may not think that you can do something but if you tell yourself that you can do it and believe that, you will be so close to achieving that goal. It may take awhile to happen hence the 'halfway there' part but it will happen.
One of my favorite quotes of all time is She believed she could so she did. I tend to tell myself this everyday. "I, Kenzi Brooke, can do this." and then I try my hardest and don't stop until I achieve something whether it be a large step or baby step. It is still something and that is all that matters.
I am fully deaf in my right ear but my family didn't find out until I was three years old. As I got older, we discovered that I have Mondini Dysplasia and Large Vestibular Aqueduct Syndrome, also known as LVAS. Mondini Dysplasia is when part of your inner ear has an abnormal hearing loss. There is a lot more to it and I still haven't learned everything about this but I know that it affects me everyday. LVAS is the part of my inner ear that is near my brain and it is the part that detects sounds. Having these two things together is quite scary. I can't do many sports because if a ball hits me in a certain area on my head, I will become fully deaf in both ears. I can't do gymnastics or dance because of all the moving around which makes me extremely dizzy. It affects my balance and I can't ride a bike. The point that I am trying to make by telling you this is that I have tried over and over again to get on a bike and to ride it by myself with no help. It hasn't happened yet and I will not stop trying until I can ride a bike.
A few days before I rode my bike last, I read the quote about believing she could so she did and I decided to try it out. As I climbed onto the bike that was in my garage, I told myself out loud that I could do it.
"I can do this."
"I can ride a bike."
"I, Kenzi Brooke, can do this."
The whole time I kept repeating those words, encouraging myself and I believed in myself. Before I stopped for the day, I was able to stay on the bike while riding it for a few seconds. It wasn't a long time that I was able to stay on it but that isn't the point. The point is that I did it even if it was for barely ten seconds. I accomplished something and I am proud of that.
If you are having a tough time in life and don't feel as if you believe in yourself, look in that mirror and look at your pretty self. Tell yourself that you can do it. Shout at the mirror saying that you can do it. The moment that you look in your mirror and truly see yourself, you are already halfway to where you want to be.
Comments